Sunday, November 16, 2008

Mirror, Mirror

I had no idea how hard it would be to stop mirror glancing or running my hand over my belly reflexively. To an outsider I wonder if I would seem overly vain, admiring and feeling myself up; in reality I'm almost always looking at my stomach and checking much too often to see if I'm puffy or flabby feeling. Geez! I'm making an effort to stop and it is working but I know it will take time. I would like to note the ban is not extending to the gym (at least when lifting weights) because the only feeling I get from that tends to be positive and I need to check my form!
I've also eaten food that would not be on the acceptable list normally when trying to lose weight and managed to avoid guilt-big deal for me.
Studying for an exam over cancer and aids/hiv tomorrow so unfortunately that is all for now.


Leah J. Utas said...

Body checking never ends, does it?

Erin said...

Hello Leah,

A strange moment to be reading your great site and to get a comment from you at the same time. I think body checking never ends but I hope to bring it back to a normal level and not to be such a negative focus. Never taking a look at yourself would be a unhealthy on the other end of the spectrum I think.